When I was in my sophomore year at the University of the Philippines, my professor in philosophy was an atheist. The very first day of our class, he boldly announced that he is an atheist then asked who believe in God. I considered myself a baby Christian then (I grew up believing in God but it was only in my freshman year in college that I can truly say that I began my personal relationship with Him) but in spite of my only-one-year-Christian-journey then, I had the audacity to stand firm in my faith. My heart was pounding hard then to be honest but I raised my hand without hesitation. I looked around and gladly I can see a few more hands raised.
He then asked, “Why do you believe?” He didn’t wait for an answer from any of us but went on and said, “I was in fact raised in a Christian family but I searched for the truth.” He took his Bible out and showed to the class. “I used to read the Bible actually and the more I search for the truth, the more I find it. What I realized is that I don’t want to believe on something just because my parents told me so”, he continued. Our professor was actually gentle in sharing his thoughts. In fact, he’s a “nice” guy but I was really uncomfortable at my seat while listening to every word he was saying. As nervous as I was, I raised my hand and he was kind to allow me to speak. “You know sir, we’re the same in a way. I don’t want a pass-on religion. I believe there are so many people out there who believe in God just because it’s the existing culture they were raised into and that’s why it so easy for them to fall when doubts come. I dared to question what I was believing. At one point in my life I questioned if God even exist and same with you, the more I seek, the more I found the truth but the difference is, I found the truth in GOD. I found Him. I’ve felt Him.” Our professor was just intently listening and did not interrupt me though I knew it didn’t change his mind but my goal was not to persuade him anyway but to also share what’s in my heart.
In one of our classes he said, “They say God is love, right?” He then wrote on the board “GOD = LOVE”. Then, “they also say that love is blind.” So he wrote, “LOVE = BLIND”. “So using the Mathematical equation, we can say that…” he then wrote, “GOD = BLIND.” I wanted to say something then but I just couldn’t form a word. I was mum the whole class and those words were buzzing in my heard the whole day; in fact, they lingered the whole semester. But because of that encounter, I seek God all the more. I may not be able to explain in that moment but I knew it in my heart that soon God will give me the wisdom that I need. This is where our personal experiences come to play the biggest role. People may question our faith even how influential they are but when you have the personal moment with God, it is something NO ONE can question because you can say with full confidence (with pride and humility at the same time), “I can see where you are coming from and I understand and I respect that but this is really something I have experienced myself.” It’s like no matter how many people will insist that it’s impossible for you to see your friend Sam for whatever reason they may say but when you saw him and talked to him yourself, no one can convince you otherwise.
After a year or so, those phrases came back to me like a resounding echo. GOD = BLIND. Then suddenly I felt the Holy Spirit talking to me and made me realized that it’s true, GOD = BLIND. What does it mean when we say love is blind? It means, you love no matter what. You love not according to the outward appearance. You love in spite and despite of. You love even if you have endless reasons not to. You love the person simply because you love. NO IFs. NO BUTs. So coming from the same context of LOVE =BLIND, then right, GOD = BLIND. Because guess what? GOD loves unconditionally.
I also talked to another atheist in our dormitory then and she also threw me a mind-blowing question but the more I am faced with these questions, the more I am pushed to get deeper in God’s wonders and words, the more I pray and the more my faith gets stronger. So no matter how “logical” their words are, I know that the TRUTH can be found in seeking HIM. I am not in any position to judge any person. I don’t even promote “debating” because I believe our fruits shall speak for our faith but I am not surprised if they can’t find GOD because the only people who could truly find HIM are those who earnestly seek Him. God said, “You will seek Me and find Me when you seek me with all your heart.” Jeremiah 29:13, NIV